I started out on this journey not really expecting much. I mean I have always been heavy, so I assumed nothing when a good friend suggested the Fat Smash, by Dr. Ian Smith. I thought gee yet another book and the only thing that would be getting exercise was my eyes going back and forth with the reading.
Then I became a virtual stalker of Ms. Paula's, I mean I actually looked forward to seeing her pics and how she was transforming into something I wanted to be, thinner. Then that turned into jealousy because while she was losing I was gaining. Now mind you I did not even pick up the fat smash book, i continued to make excuses, like it ain't gonna work, and i ain;t no rabbit, i needs to eat some meat. I mean i made all types of excuses. Well I went to the doctors one day and she said oh your blood levels were okay. I thought just okay, what is okay, well this or that was one or two points higher then it should be. I guess she was looking at me as if to say, well you are heavy and this is normal for you. Well I quickly asked for a referral to get the drastic gastric bypass, or lap band. She suggested the lap band as it was not as evasive. Well when I made the appointment got on the bid ole meat scale, because that is what they use you know and I weighed in at nearly 300lbs. I was not shocked a little embarrassed I mean there i sat no even a full 5 ft 3 in weighing that much. The nurse asked what surgery I wanted and going with my doctor, I said Lapland. The doctor saw me, but he did not really see my he suggested I go for the full Monte the big gastric. I felt appalled yet knowing my ass needed something more than a band. I thought i really must look
